Beautiful

Taking a moment to enjoy something pretty and nice and beautiful. Just love this pattern of butterflies

Windows of Light

I am getting the feelings now of windows of light and clarity.  A couple hours here and a few moments there.  I want to grab on to them and hold them tight.  Its the time when you want to say out loud that you feel some improvements but they are not around enough to embrace and the fear of them being real is so big that your not able to verbalize them quite yet.  As they slip away from you once again to that pain and agony yet your mind and heart trying to hold on to the windows of light so pure and freeing.  Is this a corner I am turning? Trying not to question it and just... Let It Be.  Let it be..

What I see

This is all I see and do lately. I find I grab for a poll to go the Bathroom even when I do not have the IV on me. That shows how often and ongoing I am hooked up!  I am not complaining though as I have a new found hope and it feels good.  I am having less and less of a herx reaction to the meds and I hope that means I am moving toward a turn for the better.  I saw that a post  on the LymeMD blog talks about a patient who did almost my same IV protocol and said that the Flaygl IV helped him turn the corner both times he did the protocol.  I am thinking that the Flagyl has been a big part of what helps me along with all the supportive therapies at the clinic which help my body accept the treatment and support the detox and immune functions.

How to choose A rife Machine?

I am thinking of adding rife to my protocol and it is a whole huge world I am finding out that I did not realize was so complicated. I am looking for a simple entry level product that will not add to the breaking of the bank I already am enduring. This product was just released to the public from German manufacturer.  I am thinking of buying this product and seeing how it goes..
ResIWave BW21 and BW77

New Treatments-2 Week Two

Hello, I am really having a tough time keeping up with a blog and not sure how others do it.  Treatment is so much work and so is being on the computer at all let along blogging.  I do plan on trying to come back and catch up and end up with a good blog experience but it may be somewhat in hindsight or after I get over the hump of all the worse of the Herx reactions.

So far though I am still feeling like treatment is like nothing else I have done or tried.  I am not running around feeling better as of yet but..  as we all know most of the time we will feel worse before better and have herx reactions.  No matter how much I hate that and do not like it I have to accept it.  Saying that.. and if that is an indication (which all my doctors say is). The treatment is working very well. My herx reactions are like none other. I can feel the treatments getting into areas nothing else has. Very deep into tissues and organs and joints and bones and brain and well.

The good thing too is that I have these glimpses of clarity and normalcy. They do not last long but I also have near no time between treatments as they are constant and with home treatment too I have very little time to rest or let my body regroup. For now.  I am in the Hit It Hard mode!..

I am herxing but not in a way that I have had in the past where I feel like I will never pull out of it and I feel poisoned!  Does any of that make any sense?

I most likey will have to revise some writing as I am flush and tried and stressed and writing is difficult as well as expressing myself difficult. But I am here and trying. Thanks  Much

New Treatments-1 Week one

Week 1 of my new treatment has been Rough but Encouraging to me. I am herxing but in a different way than ever before. It feels right.  I have had to add more Treatments now at home so My days are full and I am so tired and just doing the bare basics.. of sleep.... eat...do my treatments... and try to clean my clothes and bath.  As well i am trying hard to detox and do a couple coffee enemas a week and also trying to do detox baths. 

I am wanting to give this my all.. I have faith. I do meditaions and prayers and I flow and follow positive healing energy in the universe and through my body every day and all through my treatments.  Ecspecailly during IV treatment it helps to visualize healing energy going through me and killing bugs and geting them to leave my body forever...

Do I have to give up my cats?

I am thinking I have to give up my cats. Not only have I been to sick to care for them I have been reading and researching how bad they are for my health. I am so torn but have had many cats in my life. These girls are only 3 years old and attached and have one another. I just can not keep up either. They are long hair and it just is so hard to take care of them and I have  dog too and my son lives here.  Its just a stress too that I had thought was a positive but at some point it becomes too hard. I am heartbroken but put an ad to give them away today.  I guess I can change my mind later. : (
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